“For I am convinced that neither
death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither the present nor the future,
nor any powers , neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all of creation
will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our
Lord.”
-Romans 8:38-39
I am an answer to prayer. That is
what Corrinne informed me of this week. She said she was praying for someone to
come that shared her beliefs, someone she could talk to, someone she could
bounce ideas off of, someone who is me. I told her that she is too. We entered
each other’s lives at a critical time. We’re sharing an experience that most people
our age haven’t done and never will. We can understand each other, challenge
each other, pray with and for each other.
I realize more and more how great
our God is. Even in my low points when I want to hide in my room all day and
not acknowledge anyone else. Even when I have the audacity to question why he
would put me here, and worse yet wish I was going home sooner. Even when I fail
to show love to someone else or fail to see their needs. He patiently shows me that he loves me time
after time. He takes my hand and reveals to me all that this life has to offer
me. He reminds me that I am living my dream and that I am an answer to someone’s
prayer. He asks me if I trust him and challenges me to prove it. On Monday,
when we were in town, I looked on CAC’s website. I noticed that the CACers did
forty days of prayer with a book called “Draw the circle. I downloaded the book
and started it on Tuesday. In just 6 days it seems like big things have
happened.
DAY 6 (today)- “Yet because of your shameless audacity he
will surely get up and give you as much as you need…When we pray we relieve
ourselves of responsibility. We let go and let God. We take our hands off and
put our concerns into the hands of the Almighty God.”
Everyone was at church and I stayed
home today. I felt like I should pray for Sunrise. I always pray for Sunrise
but today there was no one here. I walked around, room to room, and prayed for
everyone; guests and volunteers to come, the food and other stuff storages, the
kitchen, the dining room, the classrooms, I prayed for Mekio’s shop, and the
soccer field, I prayed for the boys and girls dorms and the future kids to
come, I prayed for all the staff, I even prayed for our chickens and goats. I
prayed that God’s hand would be in everything and that we would continue to
turn our eyes to him.
I spent the rest of this sunny
afternoon outside, just sitting in the grass loving on some children, and I can’t
help but think that life doesn’t get much better than this. I love being here, I
love these children, I love this life I have in Tanzania, and I can’t believe
that I ever forget that. I think about my life before these children, and I think
about if I had never said yes to this life, and it hurts. The thought of never
knowing each and every one of these kids just kills me. It hurts even more to know
that someday I will have to say goodbye. BUT fortunately that is another 8-12
months away, (depending on how long I stay).
I had a very exciting skype call
this week.. I was fortunate enough to talk to some of my co-workers and some of my
residents!!!
Well parents are coming soon, it
is now in a matter of weeks. (5 and ½) I am so excited, and so fortunate to
have such awesome parents that would spend so much money to visit their
daughter. I mean you can’t put a price tag on that kind of love right? :-D
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